A Time of Giving, eh? -- So, Who's Doing The Receiving?

It’s a fine balance, isn’t it?  I’ve written about this before—how so many of us are so busy doing, and not realizing that we’re in total yang mode most of the time.  Yang—outward, active, the male principle.  It is impossible to receive in yang.  Receiving is the Yin principle—the receptive, passive, feminine aspect of life.  You can’t receive if you always putting out.  Sometimes it’s appropriate to just sit back, receive, take it all in.  In fact, for there to be balance, it is necessary to do it a lot more than sometimes.

This came up recently at a meditation I was leading.  There was a specific purpose to the meditation, so I was leading a specific energy experience.  This one friend had arrived late and had missed the part about the intent.  The meditation, as experienced by those of us who did it, was very powerful and significant.  When we shared, it was incredible the beautiful journeys through the cosmos we'd experienced.

When it was my friend’s turn, he said, “I was gone.  I didn’t hear anything you said, I went way far out and just did my own thing.”

Now, this is a friend who has been on the spiritual path for a long time, and has years of experience with energy work and meditation.  And, this has happened before, where I’ve lead a meditation experience, and he just doesn’t participate.  He’s there, but he’s not on the same page as everyone else.  When he said that, it really kind of changed the energy—we had all been sharing our experience of the meditation, and what he said really kind of blew it all away dismissively. 

I was thinking about it this morning, because I have been guilty of the same thing.  I’ve been meditating and working with energy so long, I have my own way of doing it, and so that’s what I do.  But last spring I was doing meditation once a week with a friend who lead a particular technique that I was not familiar with, nor really comfortable with.  Knowing and admiring this person, however, I quickly realized that I wanted to receive what he had to offer.  What he was offering, with his heart, his spirit and his intention was beautiful and precious, a gift, and I knew I just had to put aside my way of doing things, and give myself over to him and his intention to offer this particular experience.  Over time, I got used to it, and I really liked it for the completely different experience it was.  It had a really beautiful effect on me, and I got there a totally different way than I had experienced before.

But I had to get out of “doing” mode, the yang, active principle, and get into the receiving, yin mode.  Then I was in a state where I could “get” it and fully receive the experience.

I don’t think my friend the other night realizes that there is a little bit of ego, and arrogance, in what he said… the energy of my way is better, you aren’t offering me anything worthwhile, I’m special and different so I don’t have to do what you guys are doing … that was all very subtlely in there.  That energy then has a detrimental effect on the room, the rest of the participants, and the experience.

Now, I did what I could to mitigate the situation, and energetically it was all fine.  But I think it’s a good lesson for all of us.  Are we really receiving?  At all?  Or are we pre-judging, assuming and just closing ourselves off to so much of what life is bringing to us?  Because we think we know better, or are better than …

Just sayin’ … It’s the last breath of 2012, and the time for excuses is long over.  I’m choosing to be present, to be ever more aware and to receive with intention, just as I give with intention.

May you receive many blessings throughout the holiday season and in the New Year.  What can you allow yourself to be and receive in 2013???

Throwing a dinner party for friends is one of my favorite ways to give and receive!

 

 

Happy Thanksgiving!

I like starting the day out by quietly meditating.  Using the term loosely.  I have rocks on the bedside table, and this morning I picked up a small piece of white quartz, all white except a tiny bit of black which, as I now look  closely, looks almost like a bird in flight.

My buddy picked up this rock on an island off Labrador this summer and brought it back for me, at the end of a sailing trip.  I love having those friends who’ve known you for 30 years or more.  We’re very dear to each other, and we both appreciate it.  He first laid eyes on me as I lay strung up in a hospital bed, two arms in casts in traction, a foot in ruins, my split cheek held together with stitches.  Way to make an impression.

What I saw when he walked in the door was tall, dark and handsome.  His hair was fine and black, and hung straight down to his jaw, parted in the middle.   How eyes can blaze and be pale blue at the same time is still a mystery to me, but his do.  They penetrate cleanly, the most exquisite color blue eyes I’d yet seen, set off by high cheekbones and full lips.  Add in the broad shoulders, easy manner, and a gold tooth in his mouth, I was in lust.  Way to make an impression.

Well, the lust didn’t work out, but the friendship did.  He brings me rocks from his travels, and as I hold this piece of white quartz I am grateful for his place in my life and my heart.  Today on Thanksgiving, I am grateful for friendships that support, and nurture, both ways...  That are based on understanding and love that come from years of connections, conversations, camaraderie.

I tend to stay grateful for many things, every day.  But today, Thanksgiving 2012, I am extra grateful for those friends who love me for who I am, accept me as I am, and allow me to do the same for them.

I wish you a beautiful day filled with gratitude, appreciation, happiness and comfort.

Rocking My World of Rocks

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I’ve been having more fun with my rocks lately!

That’s probably not something you hear too often.  But, being a rock lover and mineral collector and crystal healer, that’s actually my job description.  Cool, huh?

(The following is not a digression, because working with rocks means working with energy.)  Because this is 2012, and it is such a phenomenon energetically, any energy work one indulges in these days reaps bigger and sometimes surprising results/benefits.  (Search this blog for Superwave 2012 for that background.)

So I’ve been working with stones, meditating with their frequencies, playing with running my own energies through them, and really enjoying the effects.  It’s just more; more energizing, more uplifting, more expanding and illuminating.  Way better than therapy, because it’s just a more intimate understanding and experience of me, who I am and what my frequency is.  This kind of energy work offers a really beautiful process of self-knowing and self-exploration, through this energetic communion with the stones.

This practice has led to some interesting insight and revelations.  Tihis morning, for instance, as I was working with a beautiful crystal cluster (channeling clearing through it, as I hadn’t worked with it in a few months), I began remembering a conversation I’d had recently with a fellow cosmician.  We were sitting in my healing space, surrounded by the stones I work with, and she mentioned how she used to feel, in the beginning of her spiritual path, about rocks being taken out of the earth.  She didn’t like it, and sometimes expressed her opinion vociferously. 

I have heard that same sentiment from others over the years, and I shared it myself, very long ago.  But, as I explained to my friend, as I worked with stones, I realized very quickly that they wanted to be here amongst us humans to work with us, that they had their work to do here, and there was a reason they were mined up out of the earth, to play their role in the human experience happening here on the surface.

These meandering thoughts, as I sat in bed this morning with a cup of hot tea, led me to my new relationship with Gaia that has developed this year.  My sense and awareness of her being-ness, her consciousness—her personality, if you will—has delighted me, and really expanded my Understanding of Her and her role as our Mother.  I was imagining the veins of minerals running through her crust, rather like the human nervous system, different types of stones prevalent in different areas of the world, concentrating various frequencies in particular places; Brazil, with its veritable gluttony of mineral riches, Arkansas with its quartz, South Africa with its gold and diamonds, Columbia with its emeralds … what that means energetically, is something interesting to ponder.

And I imagined the small mines around the world that are operated by individuals who lovingly coax the stones out of the earth, receiving them with gratitude, as our mother Earth feeding us, nourishing us as a new mother feeds the milk from her breast to her newborn babe.  In contrast, the mammoth-scale mining operations that, without consciousness or prayer, tear apart the earth and rend it deep in their thirst for copper, as in Arizona, coal in the east, as a botched surgery, the tailings bleeding down the mountainsides, leaving an undeniable trail of Her suffering.  Although I still think she gives it willingly, a mother giving in to her petulant toddler.

Random, rocky thoughts on a Tuesday …

I shall use my stones to heal and fulfill, nourish and support today.  What will yours do for you?  :-)

An Urge to Write--Yes, YOU!

I've been telling people to journal for the last year.  And now, with my clients, I'm really insistent about it.  Here they are, doing the most important work ever--themSelves--and journaling is a key component of it.  Recording it, reviewing it, rewinding it, observing Self as it happens; all this happens with greater depth and breadth with journalling.  Writing it down regularly helps you step back a bit, get a bigger perspective; it also provides the opportunity for the reflection through which comes greater insight, greater understanding, even those flashes of sudden inspiration Oprah calls those "A Ha!" moments.

So that's why I always tell my clients to journal.  If you don't, you're missing 70% of the journey, I really believe that. 

BUT, why I think it's critical to journal now, is ... it's 2012, for God's sake.  Let me say right off the top, I'm not talking about the end of the world scenario doom & gloom that Hollywood delivers.  I'm talking about the end of many natural cycles that have long been prophesied to end with the advent of a golden age.

Just think for a moment, what if it's true?  What if there's even a sliver of a possibility that this isn't just another year?  What if things really change "out there?"  Pretend for a moment it is true.  Now pretend it's 20 years later, 2032, and your (great) grandchild asks you with all earnestness, "Gamps, what were you doing the year the world changed?"  And you think, you ponder, and what comes to you is that job you were struggling with, and the general demoralization with the socio/economic/political structures falling apart at the seams, and how you bought a new car that year ... but what was going on inside you, that's a blur.  You remember when It happened, and how you had to adjust to a whole new reality immediately, and how painful for western culture it was--but your own personal process is lost. 

Really?  You're going to let 2012 go by without recording it?  Because what I'm coming to believe is, what's inside is what 2012 is all about.  That's where it's really, mostly going to happen.  It's the internal limitations breaking; it's the precepts that we all think are real that have created a totally false world--that's what's falling apart and ending.  Who you are, what you know, what you think is true and real, and what is false, what your essence is, what you're made of ... all that is going to change. 

So write it down.  This is a moment in history that we've been waiting for a very long time. 
Write it down.

Harvard Study Confirms Fluoride Reduces Children's IQ

Harvard Study Confirms Fluoride Reduces Children's IQ

I have been a proponent of removing fluoride from our water supply forever.  I remember when my hometown, Middlebury, Vermont, started fluoridating our water, because my father was beyond furious.  He testified, he ranted and raved to the town's Powers That Be, begging them to not do this.  He was incredulous when they went ahead with their misguided decision.  And that's the day he started getting our family's drinking water from a spring up in the mountains.
I was in 4th grade at the time, and at school the next day, having listened to his horrified conversations with mom and friends, I looked up fluoride in the dictionary.  "A yellow-green poison" was the definition.  I became utterly baffled upon reading that.  Why any sane adult would choose to deliberately poison our water supply, I just could not comprehend.  (That definition is hidden further down the paragraph nowadays). 

Now, as an adult and having done years of research on that and many other topics related to health, food, etc., I know why.  It doesn't change the fact that it's wrong; I was so hopeful when the matter came up for a vote in the city of Burlington--last year, was it?  I was astonished that it didn't pass.  We're paying for it with our bodies, our health, and now, it turns out, our intelligence.  Well, most people are.  (Most tap filters do not remove fluoride, if you think that's saving you).  I choose not to. 

I drive up to the mountains to get good spring water for me and my family to consume.  It's ridiculous that I should have to--but many things about our culture are, these days.

For Goodness' Sake ...

As the spider weaves its web, it can catch both the good (an insect providing a tasty meal) and the bad (a bird that tears the web to bits).  As we navigate our days, make choices, turn corners, our lives form a thread that, together with the rest of Life, weaves a Web of reality.  What is your thread made of?

I aspire to weave goodness into my little corner of the Web. I know I fail miserably at times, but Goodness is the goal.

Goodness.
The impulse to do the right thing, to help when there's a need, to make life better for someone, somewhere, in some small way ...

We can see signs of goodness everywhere.  There's the obvious places; the Food Shelves, the homeless shelters, etc.  But in our own way, we each can create goodness as we walk through our days.  If we pay attention, more opportunities present themselves.

Walking to my healing space this morning from the parking garage, there was an enormous tractor trailer trying to back up from Cherry Street around the tight corner onto Church Street in Burlington.  A daunting task, to be sure, and the driver had to stop and pull ahead again to make a correction.  I watched as several men passing by stopped to help.  One was directing him from the front, another at the back, and the man picking up garbage on the street gave further help from the side.  Concern for their fellow Man just kicked in and they stepped up.

This past weekend I took my son to the A&W Root beer stand in Middlebury for a root beer float.  Of course, I couldn't resist the onion rings, nor my son the french fries and cheeseburger.  When our food came, she attached the tray to my car window and cheerfuly announced "$11.85."  I looked around for my wallet, and then sputtered with embarrassment when I realized I'd forgotten it at my friend's house down the road when we'd left.

"No problem," the young woman said.  "Eat your food while it's hot and then go get your purse."

So that's what we did, greatly appreciating the goodness in her that created a good situation out of a potentially unpleasant one.

Calling to check on a friend having a hard time, sending a card, lighting a candle with a special prayer, holding a door on the street for someone, or dropping a quarter in an expired meter (not your own) with the meter man coming down the block ... little bursts of goodness--random acts of kindness--can make the world spin a little more smoothly for someone, can strengthen the threads of the Web of Life.

Who can you share your goodness with today?   :-)

A Morning Moment at All Souls Interfaith

I love stormy days!

We've just been promised lots of lightning today--in my cosmic crystal world, that means, put your crystals outside! On your deck, lawn, patio, whatever you've got. They will be cleared TIMES A GODZILLION, they'll be energized and truly charged up with all that elemental/storm energy.

Then when you bring them back into your home--wow. Use the energy to Clear, Clear, Clear. What are you ready to let go of this week? Emotionally, mentally, physically ... use Nature's gift of the elements to enhance your ascension 2012 process of jettisoning what doesn't work, what isn't you or yours, what is getting in your way; let it all go, and make room for the new, the grand unfolding of the upgraded You you now get to align with, once you've created the space--your choice.

My brain on Life ...

This is my story, and I'm stickin' to it!

Summer Solstice in this year of Ascension 2012 ... where will you be?

How are you liking 2012 so far?  The mid-point fast approaches ... I know some folks whose lives are imploding, some whose lives are exploding, some who just seem to plod along ... and others are diving headfirst into the richness, the juicy depths of the human experience, that is being magnified and multiplied times a Godzillion this year, and working it, running with it, expanding into it with relish, and glee.

I woke up this morning and did a meditation with my Ascension 2012 Essence blend, and it was fantastic.  Well, the essence is amazing anyway, if I do say so myself.  Using it with its affirmation, is really powerful.  And, it creates a perfect link to enable you to tune into this superwave of energy coming from the heart of our Milky Way Galaxy, the very phenomena the 2012 prophecy is based on...   Dr. Paul LaViolette calls it the Galactic Superwave in his youtube video  (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ADjnRaBa410&feature=related).

As a result of this meditation, I realized I really want to offer an Ascension 2012 workshop next Tuesday--twice, in fact!  First, Tuesday morning, 9-12, and in the evening, 6-9.

The reason for doing it Tuesday is that the Summer Solstice is Wednesday.  According to Peter Dawkins (zoence.com), we need to show up this solstice season.  Here's a quote from his paper, Midsummer 2012 Baptism of Light, which I recommend.  You can find it as a pdf linked on his home page.  (Bold is mine.)

Of these three Royal Arch gateways into the new Great Age, the Inner Gateway is by far the 
most important. Whatever we do, we're not to miss the midsummer solstice time. It is the most 
important time of all. It is a time for us to both receive and evolve accordingly, and also to serve 
and help others to rise up into the greater light that will be gifted to the world during that time. 
It is a gift, a moment in time, and has to be grasped. If grasped, it can be held onto forevermore 
and will lift the one who holds onto it up to higher levels of consciousness and evolution. If, 
however, that moment in time is missed, it will be gone and the opportunity will be lost. It is up 
to us to be in the right place at the right time, in the right consciousness and serving in the right 
way, helping as many others as possible in the world to receive and be lifted up by this Great 
Light that is coming to the world.

I for one am going to enjoy this opportunity and do ceremony every day, somewhere, on those days; June 20, 21, 22, 23, 24.

Today, at my healing space in the Rainbow Institute, I did another marvelous meditation, with Cyndi, the director here.  Wow.  We first gathered some friends in the center of our space--see the photo above. We then invited our non-physical friends to come in, and we did indeed have quite a group.  They joined us making some beautiful, brilliant magic.  At the end, Kuan Yin reminded us that she too, is experiencing the marvelous process that is the 2012 Ascension, as are all the Ascended Masters, and gods/goddesses from all the traditions.  She said we have to expand our awareness to allow all of them to blow out of their old molds and traditions and shift into the new golden age coming in, along with us.  They're being held back by the binds and thoughtforms of our precepts, locking them into their original forms and accompanying traits.  So, that was very cool.  Everyone wants in on this new time of expansion, enlightenment, and awakening.  What's not to like?

Are you finding yourself falling down the rabbit hole these days?

Hmmm ... I just went into my blogger profile to change my profile pic, and chose the one I wanted from my computer to upload.  When it loaded, I noticed it wasn't the one I thought I was choosing.  But since I don't believe in coincidences, I'm leaving it there.  I think I'm about 9 years old in it.  It was taken by Lotte Jacobi, and it's really interesting that it popped up. 


I've been having conversations with people about time lately, and how it is not linear, it doesn't really matter anywhere except the 3rd dimension.  It's a construct.  I look in that 9-year-old face, and I feel like I'm instantly there, flick of a switch.  Yet, here I sit in my 6th decade of life.  The backache I've had the last couple of days is telling me that my physical body is indeed, moving forward in time, accumulating hours and days' worth of living as my expiration date draws closer.

Or not?

I am re-listening to a great interview, for someone like me who's been waiting for 2012 for her entire life.  Graham Dewyea interviews Hugh, who can't reveal his real name yet.  Hugh is part of the ground crew that is helping prepare the transition for the Muggles into awareness and acceptance of the greater nature of Reality which means receiving our fellow humanoids from the other neighborhoods--uh, solar systems.  They're here, and apparently the time-line is about six months behind because the world leaders have not all completed the process of disclosure to their citizens as they should have.  But that's not my point.

I was talking about time.  And in this interview, Hugh told a story in which he was stopped at a roadside overlook and hiking spot (this occurred about 3 weeks before the interview).  A car pulled in, and a family of four got out.  The mom and daughters (young women) climbed up and away to the overlook, while the father stood and spoke with Hugh.  Hugh had an experience there and then that reminded me of what I've been observing lately myself. 

He (according to his Vulcan friend that he's been in contact with for almost 20 years) started the conversation in the third dimension, and it ended in the fifth.  The man's appearance at the start of the conversation was of a black man of 63 years, as he said to Hugh, but looked much older, with several teeth missing.  After chatting a few minutes, Hugh turned to go back to his car.  The man called to him, asking, "What's your name?" 

When Hugh turned around, the man was young-looking, smiling with a perfect set of white teeth, appearing about 25 years of age!  Hugh answered him, and the man turned and bounded up the steps to follow his family with the vigor of a young man! 

Later Hugh asked his Vulcan friend what that was all about, and she explained what's happening here, now.  The veils are lifting and this 2012 Ascension process is happening, and this is what it looks like!

We are going to need to broaden our definition of reality.  We are going to have to be flexible and adjust frequently when things change right in front of our noses, or what we thought was happening turns into something else, and everyone else acts like it's normal.

The Vulcan also told Hugh that all those earth noises you've been hearing about?  (there are many you tube videos about the strange sounds the earth is making everywhere on the planet)  They are the sounds of our Mother Earth, our planet, as she expands into the 5th dimension.  She told him, it's the sounds of the whole planet, earth, plants, trees, animals, oceans, as the binds of 3rd dimensional reality let go and expansion happens.  (I'm paraphrasing).  They're sounds of joy.

That made sense to me; I've heard some of these sounds, and it's wild stuff. 

Hugh's contacts from other worlds have told him (and shown him) that indeed, our 5-D bodies are perfectly healthy.  And what our new friends will bring to our world as this Ascension 2012 process unfolds, Hugh assured Graham in this conversation, is many, many improvements to our living and our health, our wealth, our life.  The health/medical industry we currently struggle with will disappear, because we will be living in perfect health.  Those folks working in that arena need not fear the loss of pay, because the new ways of living will create new jobs.  Cleaning up the planet.  Modifying our vehicles to levitate and have limitless power.  It goes on and on.

Things look bleak out there in what is currently accepted reality.  But don't get attached to it, because soon it's all going to change.  It's happening to me; I'm feeling the Lightness and the Love and the Expansion that's already shifting things.  It will soon be our new normal, and I couldn't be more excited to be here now.  Be Here Now. 

That's the best strategy in these interesting times.  Be Here Now, be present, be in a state of gratitude and love yourself and others.  Your heart chakra will most likely be trying to open up more to better receive the new energies coming in on this wave of transformation.  Allow it!  Relax, surrender to these galactic forces that are ever so much bigger than we are and enjoy the ride.  That's my plan.   Because ... it's supposed to be FUN! 

2012 is here, and everything is changing.  I love it.


P.S.  With the intent of sharing with you another slice of my world, here's one of my favorite crystal friends (I've had it 30 years) at one of my favorite places.  The crystal is vibrating with love and joy and peace and healing.  Tune in, it's yours!

Transition is the theme these days ....

Wow ... I guess I shouldn't be surprised that it's just as hard in 2012 as it was last year making time to slow down and smell the daffodils, the mongolias. Once again, I'm determined to do so!

However, this is transition time, so down time is rare. Successfully moved out of the beautiful space that housed my production and my office the last year. It took all last week, but it's done. Now there're boxes in my garage instead of my car. I've partially moved into my new Healing space on Church Street in Burlington, Vermont, which is very exciting, and a whole new feel. Wow. It's going to take a few days to rearrange my brain and my energy bodies to accomodate the changes.

In between moving last week, I also created time to prepare for my table at the Earth Spirit Conference, which was this past Saturday (4/14). I wanted to have a flyer for my healing practice, but I didn't have a logo. I thought about perhaps tweaking my Cosma Creations logo, because I like it so much:

But I couldn't figure out how to do that. I didn't have extra time to create something new. After pondering for a few minutes, I got inspired to look in my art journal I've been creating this year. There are some really fun drawings in there and one element of one I did caught my eye.


It really resonated with my intention for this new phase of things. The colors are my favorites: sky blue, darker green and lighter green, and a dash of violet. Awesome. So there it was, and already mine. It also resonated with the name of my practice, which some goddess girlfriends helped me come up with: Marna's Healing Arts~Lifetimes of Wisdom.


So I was able to get a little mini flyer done for the conference. I picked them up at Kinko's Friday night after listening to Matt Townsend and Jeremy Hammond play at Radio Bean in Burlington. An awesome experience that was! https://www.reverbnation.com/matttownsend


The conference was fantastic. http://www.earthspiritconferences.com/ My friends Cameron and Glenn Broughton have been putting on these conferences for years now, and it's one of my favorite events. We heard from crop circle researcher Karen Alexander via Skype from the UK. My favorite quote: "Just about the only place Science & Religion meet is in their loathing and denial of the paranormal."


Author Michael Glickman also joined us from the UK in the same fashion. "Crop circles are mirrors in which we can polish our souls." Love that! Michael has written extensively on crop formations. Find him online. He took questions from the audience. I got in line with this one: "If we, in our 3-dimensional bodies, cast a 2-D shadow, could the crop formations be 3-D shadows of 5th-dimensional creations?" He assented his agreement that that was indeed possible. What do you think? Go to temporarytemples.co.uk to see Steve & Karen Alexander's images of the 2011 crop formations in England. Fantastic! http://www.temporarytemples.co.uk/imagelibrary/


On Sunday many from the conference gathered at the Burlington Earth Clock. http://circlesforpeace.org/ I took my 12-year-old son with me. The whole 20 minutes' ride into Burlington he gave me every reason in his head why I shouldn't make him go with me. I tried explaining that it was up to me as his mom, while he's a child and his life foundation is being built, to ensure him a rich variety of experience to broaden his viewpoint and understanding and world view. He didn't buy it. Nor did he stop complaining.


We get to the beautiful spot on the lakeshore just north of Oakledge park in Burlington where the stones of the Earth Clock stand sentinel on Blanchard Beach. What a marvelous space those stones hold. As Glenn Broughton explained in his homily at All Soul's Interfaith Gathering that night, "The stones aren't the most important thing in a stone circle. The space they hold, is."


I proceeded to unpack my crystal singing bowl, walking around the circle playing it (F or the heart chakra). I noticed my son climb up on one of the big stones, sitting there from his perch observing the 50-odd folks mingling, talking, greeting and hugging. He seemed very happy.


Some 20 minutes later he came to me and whispered discreetly, "Mom, I'm going down to the beach." I smiled my assent and off he went.


Our ceremony, lead by David Brizendine and Jeanette Bacevius, was simple, beautiful, and inspiring. The drumming was fantastic, and got everyone moving. David plays a bass drum like ... well, like no one else.


It was an hour and a half before we closed the circle, and I went to look for my son. I had to laugh when I peeked over the sea wall and there he was, lying on the sand. No, in the sand. He'd covered himself up, over his clothes, from his toes to his neck. He looked so comfortable and happy, languidly dribbling sand out of his fingers, soaking up the sun and sand energies and the energy of the water, waves lapping a few feet away.


I made my way down to him, sat beside him, enjoying the space he had created. "What a great idea," I told him. "You look so comfortable." "I am," he said. After a minute or two, he said, "Are we ready to go?" I said, "Sure, anytime."


He lay there another minute or two, then sat up, slowly brushing off the sand. As he stood he gazed at the water and said, "That was fun." The appreciation in his voice was clear, the contentment he exuded radiant. And I felt validated, insisting that he come with me. I reveled in the fact that he'd enjoyed lying on his back in the sand, just being ... alone with his thoughts, and the elements caressing him. Time out, space out--time to just be.

Energy on a page II

energy on a page ...

Relationships ...

I’m looking for a large book to put under my macbook before I sit down with it in my lap. I grab the nearest qualifying book: Diana - Portrait of a Princess. There’s a photo of her on the paper bookcover that is captivating; beautiful and glamorous, she appears fresh and wild, majestic and magical, at the same time.

That’s what makes me think of her now—I first married within weeks of Diana and Charles, had a child in the same timeframe, and I often ruminated from afar in those early childhood/motherhood years, on what a great mother she seemed to be. Seeing those two boys turn into the young men they have, and how great they turned out (from the available evidence), is heartwarming to see. That first child of mine turned out great, also. Motherhood, I’ve decided, is always going to challenge me. I’ll never have it all figured out. I actually used to think that was possible, that I’d eventually just know what to do in every situation. Ha! It’s a guessing game and I find myself winging it a lot. Teenage boys are, of course, a very unique breed, capable of random acts of greatness and boundless energy, and often immersed in that special human mood reserved for teenagers. You know, the one where your decades’ worth of life experience “don’t count for anything” and, you keep looking for the Bang Head Here sign because you’ve tried everything else. Ah yes, an adventure indeed. But, that’s not why I started writing today. I digressed.

Or is this another digression? Hard to tell in a blog. Anyway, I called a friend to wish her a belated birthday this morning. We were talking about men (she’s married, I’m divorced) and she voiced to me her theory as to why she’s enjoying the company of older women now. “Women my age and up,” she said, which is mid-50s, “are still curious and still learning and growing, expanding. They’re wiser, more confident, and that’s fun to be around. They’re more interesting because they’re more interested.”

I agreed with her, and she went on to say, “Men, on the other hand, stay the same. If they were a horny pig at 17, they’ll be a horny pig at 87. They complain that women always want to change them. I don’t think so. I think, we just want them to change too, internally, to keep up with us. They don’t. And who they are at 25 is not so cute when they’re 65.”

Hmmm … food for thought, eh? I’ve always enjoyed my girlfriends, at every age. I recognized a kinship in the connection that is worth cultivating and nurturing, because girlfriends are there for each other in ways beyond normal loyalty, love and concern. We go through life and death together, literally, and those relationships are rock-solid when you take care of them.

My birthday friend did concede that there are the obvious exceptions to her rule. I had to tell her that in my circles of friends, the larger percentage of males are having an active spiritual life, in one way or another, than not, and that was satisfying to take note of. At the Earth Clock Equinox celebration last Saturday I’d bet almost half of the 75+ people that turned up were male.

Human relationships, family relationships, work relationships, all offer plenty of opportunity to learn more about ourselves. I’m grateful for the relationships with my girlfriends, some of which span most of five decades. They’re a constant in my life, a touchstone of support when my head starts spinning at the speed of Life around me. So thanks, ladies, goddesses and girlfriends in my life. I so appreciate you and all your magic, and how it enriches my life every day. I hope I do the same for you.

PS I think we should all send our (clean) panties to John Boehnert. He seems to want what we have, which he can’t, but perhaps a million panties will be consolation.

https://www.facebook.com/pages/Mail-a-Million-Panties-to-John-Boehner-for-Womens-Reproductive-Rights/166189526768167#!/pages/Mail-a-Million-Panties-to-John-Boehner-for-Womens-Reproductive-Rights/166189526768167

Releasing Judgment

Who would you be if you could release all self-judgment?

Hmmm?

What if you did it, released all self-judgment?

Pause, let that idea percolate for a moment …

How would energy move through you, without all that resistance of self-judgment? How would you approach your day, your job, your family … your mirror on the wall? If there were no self-judgment, in its place would be self-acceptance, self-love, joy, expansion, Love, and connection. How do those words feel as you say them? Do you have to re-define them in this context?

I’ve had some mind-bending experiences lately. On February 17^th, I had an Akashic Records reading with the extraordinary Christy Johnson—more on that later, but here's her site--I highly recommend her!

http://intuitiveheal.com/

Then last week, my goddess group gathered around the computer and listened to Shifra Hendrie interview Rikka Zimmerman, an Access Consciousness facilitator. All of us in the room have been actively working and walking our spiritual path for a long time—and we were still blown away by what we heard. Here’s a link to that interview—I don’t know how long it will be up, but if you’re human and you have a pulse, it’s required listening, in my humble opinion.

http://www.quantumhealingandsoul.com/vip6/replay6.html

So, back to judgment.

Some tidbits from Rikka Zimmerman about judgment: Judgment is a toxin, a contagion. Judgment never belongs to you, because you’re a Being of Pure Joy and Love. Judgment causes Separation. When you feel a judgment coming on, switch to Awareness instead. Awareness feels lighter, Judgment feels heavier—it has an emotional charge to it.

And this one I really like:

Any judgment I make of myself is a borrowed opinion.

So again, I ask you, who would you be if you released all self-judgment? What a great question, eh?

Not only does judgment create separation, it creates limitation and fear. Where have you been destroying yourself in order to maintain those limitations you bought into? What part of you have you shut down to maintain the lies?

I have been chewing through these questions for days, and I’m still chewing! Talk about food for thought!

Here’s another question Rikka asked:

What if you do actually work? What if you aren’t broken?

Just ask yourself those questions, and note how you feel inside. I feel a spark go off, a sudden illumination, and I feel lighter, brighter.

And there’s an opening with those questions. There’s a response from the Universe, a shift in the flow of what we’re allowing ourselves to receive. The opinion we hold of ourselves is the only thing that we allow in, the only thing the Universe can give us.

How’s that for a mouthful?

What if you are, and have always been, a beautiful, successful, dynamic, charismatic and joy-filled being? Hold that thought, and watch your heart chakra. Do you feel it warming, opening, softening? What if _____________ … (fill in the blank) ?

Play with that awhile, savor it ... what if it were true?

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I went to the Burlington Earth Clock a couple days ago. I missed the Imbolc celebration the day before, so I wanted to tune in. It was pretty brisk out, but no snow, all was quiet on the shoreline; only one or two passersby on the bike path the whole time I was there.

As I approached, I sensed the energy of the circle, it was just beautiful. It was still resonating from the activities the day before. It’s really settled into the landscape and the geography, I was noting the way it seems to anchor the energy of the whole area.

I passed between the stones, into the circle, and was immediately enveloped by its palpable energy field. I stood and took it in, then walked slowly to the power spot, just off center. I rotated slowly counterclockwise, to draw the energy into my Self, receive it with intention. I haven’t been running on all cylinders lately, so it felt right to do some receiving.

And then I switched gears, and pulled out my Cosma Creations Ascension 2012 energy battery. Now that 2012 is here, I’ve been working with the energy of it, which is coming in to Earth from the center of the galaxy. It’s quite astonishing to remote view it, or just go there with your energy body. And even cooler is how my Ascension 2012 battery really acts as a key or conduit to link up our own energy body with this “superwave” coming in now. I had a lot of fun last week listening to astrophysicist Dr. Paul Laviolette explaining to Kerry Cassidy how he discovered these superwaves emitting from the center of the Milky way. Fascinating! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oURVtGKW420 It’s these cyclic waves of energy that are responsible for the evolutionary changes that occur quite suddenly, according to David Wilcock. He reported on an experiment by a Russian scientist, who beamed a laser light through a petri dish of salamander eggs into a petri dish of frog eggs. Can you guess? The frog eggs turned into perfect little salamanders. The laser had carried that genetic information into the frog eggs and, presto change-o!

So imagine for a moment what this huge-beyond-measure superwave of energy coming at us now is doing energetically … to us, to our DNA, to our cells and our brains. How are we being affected? I actually think that all the EMFs that we are being hit with from our own planet, the cell phone, microwave and radio wave energies, etc., are acting as homeopathic doses to prepare us for what’s coming in… Call me crazy (you won’t be the first!) but that’s what I think.

So, back at the Earth Clock, I took out my Ascension 2012 battery and used it to activate all the stones. I liked the idea of turning the clock into a portal for that cosmic wave. Perhaps it will stabilize it as it comes in … who knows? It’s all a guessing game at this point, but I figure, our intuition is one of our best assets now, in terms of figuring all this out.

When I was finished, the stones were vibrating even more beautifully; the circle was definitely in alignment with my intention. I then walked inside the circle clockwise, to get the energy flowing out, plug into the Planetary Grid to feed the whole planet.

The Earth Clock offers a beautiful sacred space to tune in, to receive, to connect to Source and Gaia and All That Is. These connections can only serve us well in these changing times, so take advantage of it and other sacred spaces as you chart your course through your days.

Happy 2012!