I was contemplating the recent astrology news that hit the airwaves last week with the announcement of a new sign, “Orphiuchus” and was contemplating its meaning. It would shift me out of the Scorpio Sun Sign into Libra; having studied astrology for a number of years and allowing it to roost in my belief system, I had cause to give it reflection (even as we know it’s not the case, this was known about for ages ...).
I’ve always identified with Scorpio (http://www.astrology-online.com/scorpio.htm), for many reasons. Some friends have said, “I can see you as a Libra,” but that’s because the world doesn’t see what’s hidden beneath ... Scorpios, or at least this one, have an inner world as big as, if not bigger than, their external one. Navigating my inner landscape is not to be undertaken lightly; though I journey there frequently, it’s uncharted waters. I’ve sailed a lot of storms inside, as well as peaceful seas.
I’ve always been drawn to mysteries—I revel in crime novels and movies, and that’s the Pluto aspect of Scorpio calling—the underworld is full of mysteries and dark lure. I’ve thought I’d make a good detective, because I also have the big picture sense of the Eagle side of Scorpio, along with that innate understanding of the darker elements of human existence. I’ve also always had an intense awareness that this lifetime, I committed to the Light, and am dedicated totally to raising the frequency of myself, the Planet, and my clients, so as to align with this 2012 ascension process. But this has been always in the front of my awareness—I know I have made the wrong choices in past lives, and paid dearly for attaining power for power’s sake. Not this time ....
I picked up a new book yesterday at a great (cheap!) sale, a writer I’ve never heard of: First Daughter, by Eric Van Lustbader. I was just drawn to it. It became apparent why on page 37, where the protagonist muses about the life he’s chosen as an agent:
We’re a breed apart, Jack thought. We inhabit the world just like everyone else, but we walk through it as shadows. We have to in order to find the places where the vermin live, worm ourselves in to lure them out, or to chop them into tiny pieces. And after a while, even if we’re extremely vigilant, we become so used to being shadows that we don’t feel comfortable anywhere else but the darkness. That’s when, like it or not, in order to save ourselves, in order to preserve our way of living, we sever our ties with normalcy, because it becomes more and more difficult to make that transition back from the shadows into the light, until it becomes impossible altogether. And then here we find ourselves, deep in the places where only shadows exist.
I can so relate to this passage, it’s very Scorpio-ish. And it really illuminated for me the face that it’s a conscious choice we make, Light or Dark. Yes, there’s lots of gray ... But we all know those times when we’re faced with a decision, and we know in our bones that one choice is the truth-affirming one, and the other, not, though it may be easier, initially safer, etc.
I was at a recent event that was so heartwarming, so uplifting, with lots of energy-expanding activities, where people were basking in love and good energy and the vibration was off the charts. Everyone had a great time, except for one friend. This person has had his heart behind a wall for some time, avoiding the pain of the trajectory his life has been on for the last several years. It broke my heart to see him close down, the melancholy taking him over, rather than open up and be a part of what was there, right in front of him. It was so clear it was a choice he was making—the darkness of his pain, because it was “comfortable,” rather than the release of the Love and the Light—the unknown.
I’m not trying to rescue this friend anymore—I recognize that his choice is not mine to mess with. I can only choose for myself. I choose to Shine my Light, as Marianne Williamson so beautifully urges us*, serve It as well, for in so doing, I align with Highest Path, Power & Purpose. That’s a good choice.
*The Healing Light Institute of Spirituality “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us, it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” ~Marianne Williamson
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